..... guess what just happened to me.
as i got dropped off by jae and david
i get to my door, i realize something.
after a couple of seconds, "FUCK, I FORGOT MY PHONE"
and i legit SPRINT to the stoplight that i might have a chance to get to, to catch up to them.

now just imagine this.
a small girly asian girl.
with her boots, just throwing her totebag on the ground
and SPRINTING in the middle of this freezing night out of nowhere in the neighborhood.

now know this.
i, this small girly asian girl
and when i say girly i MEAN girly
where "sprinting" isn't even in her vocabulary has to do this.
then only thing i know how to do is power walk, for shopping of course (:

but anyways

in some part it felt kind of cool like in one of those korean dramas
where one lover runs to catch up to the other lover
except:....
it wasn't for a lover, it was for my phone (and the guy is supposed to chase the girl)
i failed and didn't catch up.
i looked like a total idiot running down my neighborhood flailing my arms and calling out their names
and in the middle of it i tripped.... BUT I DIDN'T HURT MYSELF!


sigh all i can say.
GG mina moon GG

Today was the first day of my junior year. Wow.
I'm a junior. Only 643 more days till graduation day.

In a blink of an eye so many things are changing.

I've realized I've lost so many people, for the reason of me "changing"
First I denied it, I really didn't think I changed.
Now yeah, I realize it. But I still don't get why it hurt our friendship in anyway?
But it made me realize I can find better friends than friends that "dump" me in less than a second because of some change.

What, but now.
I can NOT wait for three things.

1. Applying for colleges.
2. Turning Eighteen.
3. Graduation day.

I'm driving soon.
I remember dreaming about driving when I was a little girl.
I wanted a pink barbie convertible, with pink heart sunglasses.
Cute. Now I realize how before everything seemed so easy, not it's all work work work.
I did't even think of the whole driving aspect.. I already jumped to my imagination about my car.

Oh jeez. I kind of miss those days where all you had to worry about was what to eat and which crayon color to use to color for my coloring book.
Now it's anything lower than an A = DEATH&FAILURE.
You know, absolutely no pressure at all..

Well now I can check off one day of my highschool career part 3.
Now only fivemillion more.
Goodbye.

a couple more days till one year with him.
a couple more weeks till school.
a couple more months and i graduate junior year.
a couple more years and i graduate highschool altogether.

wow. time flies doesn't it?

these past sixteen years have been crazy.
but it's only been sixteen.
i'm so excited to see what's going to happen next.

will i have the same friends?
will i have the same boyfriend?
will i still be stuck here in virginia?
will i even go to college?

well all i can do is just let life be.
let's see what happens.

my face is bloated x908t89479857298572.
i can barely open my eyes.
i look like a freaking hobbang thing.... -_- FML

but anyways.
i don't know what to do.
i thought maybe some sleep would help.
but when i went off to sleep, i couldn't.
i just kept on staring at my fan spinning and spinning.

for some reason, the spinning calmed me down.
it made me just slow down and think.
what happened?
why did it happen?
what's going to happen next?
is it me, is it him, or is it just us?

even after all that thinking and breaking everything down.
i couldn't come down to a conclusion.
it's kind of ironic how the person you care about the most,
who can make you the happiest person ever.
can also make you hurt the most too.
but there must be a reason, why that person is that important.
there must be a reason why you go through and deal with that hurt.

that's one of the things that kept me thinking.
i don't know what to do.
but i guess we'll see what happens.

i don't know what's happening.
i don't know if it's me or everything else.
but i know for sure everything is changing.

Dear Followers,
(Actually I don't think I have any. ): )

But anyways. I'm very bored right now. I've been sitting out in the hallway for the past hour, since it's my free period and there's no where to sit. GREAT now my butt's numb. Anyways, I was really bored so I decided to blog.

Yesterday I thought about so much, especially about what happened.
What happened to one of the closest friends I've ever had?
Why did I let her go so easily?
Why did we literally just breakup?
Why did I automatically just assume she was being too dramatic and give up?

I thought about it, and the big fight, well it really wasn't any of our faults.
Well I was talking to my tutor about just everything and he told me how my personality is like.
My personality is more of a feeler apparently. I don't really know how to explain it.
But I just go with what I want to do. I don't really care about what I should do, I mean of course I do.
But I'd rather go have fun and do what I want rather than be like this is what I have to do, and I'm doing it.
I'm very open-minded so it's easier for me to see perspectives of other people.
Well I'm not sure if all of that is true, but I know I definitely am not responsible.

And my bestfriend? I kind of thought about how her personality is and I think this is it.
She's basically the complete opposite. She loves order, she loves knowing everything.
The best way to explain her is she's very black & white. She sees it as if she has a list of things to do everyday.
And she always tries to fit it in for her priorities. Me, being the person that I am, I guess couldn't fill her expectations.

I guess I'm more of a girl where, I can just stop talking with someone I'm close with for a long period of time.
Then pick it up randomly and be the same way. It doesn't mean I hate you or I lost interest in you, I guess I was
doing other things. But that doesn't mean that person I care for isn't a priority. It's just I'm more of a person where
if I see it, I interact with it. I have to be reminded constantly. I don't know I could rant on about this, but I know finally how to change a bit. But not fully, I don't think it will satisfy her, but I'm atleast going to try. Becasue this girl, she was completely different from all the other friends I've had. Let's see what happens!

OH! So basically I'm going on a trip to the beach MAYBE. If I can pull it off. And I'm really really really really really excited!
This trip reminds me of [y] -_-, who I'm currently aosijfasiof at. -_-
Gosh that jerk. Anyways I'm very excited to go to this Chinkowhatever Island place. I don't even know how to pronounce it or spell it, thats how you gotta know it's going to be exciting ! At this place there's apparently horses on the beach. There's the ocean and the sand. The beach house. The cute boardwalk stores. The boardwalk. Maybe there's even one of those cute amusement parks! I don't know people are planning to go party there, but I think I'm going to be exploring there more than drink or whatever. See I guess partying can be fun, it's just I think it's a waste. You know? You're at this beach which I get to go like once a year. I could party any other time of the year. I want to stargaze there! I bet the stars will be beautiful there, and I want to see the sunset. But I think people will be too intoxicated, so those are my solo trips, which I don't mind! (:
So my mini solo plans for myself, I Mina Moon, will:
1. Explore the boardwalk area.
2. Make a HUGE sandcastle.
3. Stargaze on the beach.
4. Wake up really early, and watch the sunrise or either the sunset.
5. Tan<3
6. Look for a hermit crab!
7. Look for the horses there and take pictures with them

Let's see if I complete all of them. I would be very proud of myself !

So now, you know what? This if the final thing I'm going to rant about.
SOPHOMORE YEAR IS ALMOST OVER.

Okay, sorry i'm just very excited.
i'm done with half of my highschool career.
i know its a long time till I graduate, but i just can't believe that I'm going to be a junior already.
I've always seen myself stuck as a little elementary school kid.
But now I'm a junior. One more year closer to, June 4th, 2010.
Class of 2012. Future Class of 2016 of UCLA. TIGHT


Okay, well I don't really want to rant more, so byebyes<3

two more days till i see [y]